The obligatory New Years post

It doesn't feel like December 31st to me.  I made it home yesterday from KC, and so I am still trying to adjust to being home.  To me it feels like a regular Saturday.  I have no plans for the holiday.  I can't remember the last time I actually did something on this day.  Probably 6 or 7 years ago.  I am lucky now if I make it to midnight.  I am making junk food for dinner, and maybe I will watch a movie tonight after Hannah goes to bed.  That is the extent of my celebrating.  2011 was a pretty good year for me and my family.  I am excited to see what 2012 has in store for me.

Christmas wrap up

I have been in Kansas City for about 5 days, and it has been a great visit.  I didn't realize how exhausting it would be to chase a toddler around houses that are not toddler proofed.  Hannah hasn't been sleeping well, and I am not sure if it is due to her cold or trying to sleep in a new place.  Poor girl is not having luck with the Christmas holiday.  Last year she was almost 7 months old, and she was cutting her first tooth.  This year she has a cold or allergies.

The 17 hour drive went pretty well.  We stopped for the night in Memphis.  It was my first time actually seeing Memphis.  I have driven past it a few times, but never stopped.  We ate at a restaurant that was on Man Vs Food.  They had a chocolate chip cookie cooked in a skillet that was so good.  I wanted to lick the skillet it was so good.  Luckily, I did show some restraint.

It has been great to see all my family and friends.  It had been 6 months since I had seen anyone.  Only a few days left, and I still need to eat some barbecue.  I will share some pictures once I get home.  I hope everyone had a terrific Christmas as well!

Pinterest and Christmas

I joined Pinterest. I am not crafty, but I am enjoying finding recipes.  I love food.  I have found a few craft projects, but I doubt I will do them.  I always say I will do them, and then I don't.  I usually just buy it online somewhere (lazy I know.)  

I leave in 3 days for KC, and I have not started anything I need to do for the trip.  It is so unlike me.  I feel a bit unmotivated lately to do anything.  I have treats to make, but I want to wait until right before I leave so they are fresh.  I still need to find all our heavy coats (darn cold weather!), and pack clothes.  Thankfully, we have decided to break the trip up like we did on the way here. We were going to leave early evening and drive it in one day.  So far it seems like we will have sunny weather for the two days.  I can't believe it is time to head back.  I haven't seen anybody in over 6 months.  It will be nice to see friends and family again.

32

Yesterday I turned 32.  It feels like time is flying by.  My life is definitely not what I imagined it would be at this age.  However, that isn't a bad thing.  I had a pretty good day.  The husband got up with Hannah at 5:30 so I could sleep.  I slept until almost 7.  It was awesome!  He also made breakfast for me.  We went to a Christmas party on the base.  Hannah ran around on bubble wrap, and met Santa.  She said hell no to Santa.  We took the dogs to Petsmart to do some Christmas shopping, and later that night we went out for dinner.  I think I fell asleep before 10, but I told myself it was okay since it was my birthday.  All in all, a pretty good birthday.  Although, the next birthday can take its sweet time getting here.

Baby fever

I have baby fever.  And it is bad.  I long to hold a little newborn in my arms again.  I am not sure why. I am tired all the time since my child doesn't sleep.  Another kid that doesn't sleep would probably send me over the edge.  Also, this time I wouldn't have as much help since the husband is training.  When I was pregnant, I knew I could easily have a second or even third (of course I was still naive to how hard it is to raise a child.)  Then during labor and after, I swore I would never have another kid.  Never.  Shortly after that,  I went back to thinking a second would be fun.  You can see the pattern.  However, lately the discussion has been there about another child.  I think the answer is yes, but it all depends on the timing.  The Navy likes to make things difficult when it comes to planning a future.  Luckily, I know a few people having babies soon so maybe I can get my newborn fix until I can have my own. 

Gone too soon

Seven years ago today, my dear friend's mother passed away.  This woman was also a close friend to my mother.  This day is just as hard on me as the anniversary of my own mother.  She was like a second mom to me growing up. When she passed away, I was so consumed with grieving for my own mother I don't think I ever properly grieved for her.  I read my friend's facebook status today, and how tough the day is on her.  I found myself thinking about it today, and I started crying.  There I was crying in the shower.  That was my secret crying place after my mom died, and I was once again using it again today.  I understand that it is everyone faces death.  It is our fate as humans.  I get it.  However, it pisses me off that these women were taken too soon.  They were still young.  They still had children to raise.  (Okay we were both in our mid 20s, but we still needed our moms.)  I look at Hannah and feel such sadness for her because she will never know her Nana.  My mom loved having grandbabies.  I know she would love playing with Hannah.  I try to show Hannah pictures of my mom, and tell her all the stories I can, but I know it isn't the same.  I never took the time to ask questions about recipes or at what age I did stuff.  I figured I could ask when I got married and had kids.  I was wrong.  I wish I had asked back then.  Luckily, my dad remembers some of the milestones.   I am going to make a point to share all I can with Hannah just in case I don't make it to 100 like I planned.