I forgot

This past weekend the husband gave me an opportunity to have 2 hours to myself.  2 hours!  I was supposed to leave the house and not come home until 5.  Since we are low on money I decided to go to the library and then go to the gym.  Well, the library was closed despite what their website said.  I didn't want to go to the gym without a book to read otherwise I give up on working out within a few minutes (I am lame I know.)  I came home to get a book when I remembered that they are in a box somewhere in my garage.  The husband told me to find something else to do.  I went out to the car, sat there for a minute, and my mind was completely blank.  I had no clue what I could do that didn't involve taking kids somewhere or running errands.  I started crying.  I felt like I had lost myself.  I felt like a loser.  In that moment I missed my family and friends.  I miss calling up a friend and asking if they want to hang out.  I know 2 other women here.  That's it.  One has two kids so she is pretty busy.  The squadron isn't very social so I haven't been able to meet other spouses through squadron functions.  I felt so depressed in that moment.  I decided to take Pepper for a walk.  We both needed to get out of the house (and the exercise.)  All of this leads me to a question, what do you all do if you get free time?