Tuesday, April 9, 2013
This past weekend the husband gave me an opportunity to have 2 hours to myself. 2 hours! I was supposed to leave the house and not come home until 5. Since we are low on money I decided to go to the library and then go to the gym. Well, the library was closed despite what their website said. I didn't want to go to the gym without a book to read otherwise I give up on working out within a few minutes (I am lame I know.) I came home to get a book when I remembered that they are in a box somewhere in my garage. The husband told me to find something else to do. I went out to the car, sat there for a minute, and my mind was completely blank. I had no clue what I could do that didn't involve taking kids somewhere or running errands. I started crying. I felt like I had lost myself. I felt like a loser. In that moment I missed my family and friends. I miss calling up a friend and asking if they want to hang out. I know 2 other women here. That's it. One has two kids so she is pretty busy. The squadron isn't very social so I haven't been able to meet other spouses through squadron functions. I felt so depressed in that moment. I decided to take Pepper for a walk. We both needed to get out of the house (and the exercise.) All of this leads me to a question, what do you all do if you get free time?