Sister Wives

I will admit I watch Sister Wives.  I can't stop watching it.  The show fascinates me.  I don't know how much of it is real considering reality tv doesn't seem to be very real anymore.  However, the idea behind the show intrigues me.  I honestly don't think polygamy should be illegal.  I understand the outrage behind when you have people like Warren Jeffs taking 12 year old girls and turning them into wives and abusing them both sexually and physically.  It is sad to say that happens outside of the Jeffs' Zion ranch though.  I think in the case of the Browns they are over 18 and the kids don't appear to be abused.  Now for the real reason I write this.  I think I understand why they choose plural marriage.  There is no way I could share my husband like they do.  That is not for me.  He is my husband and no one else's.  However, I get the community type feel they have to their family.  They function as four separate families, and as one entity.  There have been many days where I wish I could have gone downstairs to find another adult and kids to hang out with.  I know what you are thinking though, "That's what friends are for."  Which is true except for my situation it is has been tough to find some nearby.  My family only has 1 car which makes it tough sometimes for Hannah and I to get out of the house.  Some people are extremely lucky to be very good friends with neighbors.  I am not one of those people.  I would love it if I could live in a huge house with my close friends and their families.  We each have our own house inside of a very large house.  I can have my own space when I need it, or I can easily go hang out with someone when I feel like I am about to pull my hair out and I need a break.  Who knows?  Maybe it wouldn't really work because you would still be close to get a break from each other.  I think what it boils down to is I miss my friends and family.  I wish they were closer right now.

Pictures

I wanted to share a few pictures of Hannah.  I think she is one of the cutest little girls around, but I am biased.  :)

Here she is at the beach:

Here is one pretending to be her dad:

We were supposed to see his training plane today, but since it was lightning we couldn't go to the flight line.  Hopefully, Hannah and I will get a chance to sit in the plane soon.  When we do, I will share some of those pictures.  Hannah loves planes just like her daddy!

A woman's role?

I am a person who likes to have my time.  Time to myself to relax and unwind.  I need a few minutes away from everyone to do what I want to do.  I do not need to be surrounded by people at all times.  I know some people like to be around others all day, but for me it doesn't work.  I have found since becoming a wife and mother that I seem to lose that alone time I once had as a single person.  I know I get time to myself (for example this very moment I am the only awake in the house and it is not even 9pm).  It feels like though that I am always giving, giving, giving.  I wake up and take care of the dogs.  Then I feed Hannah and take care of her.  Then it is on to my morning chores around the house.  Take care of Hannah and the dogs during the day.  Husband comes home, I cook dinner and some nights help him study.  He leaves again to study and I take care of Hannah and dogs.  I get Hannah to bed, husband comes home.  He then wants to talk to me, and watch some tv with me.  I do feel like I have lost my "me" time.  I know I just need to be better at time management or something.  Or stop feeling guilty for sitting around.  I feel guilty for sitting right now.  I feel like I should be cleaning up the playroom and dusting.  Am I the only one that feels this way?

In very different, but light hearted news, I finally bought new shoes for Hannah.  Poor girl was wearing shoes that were 2 sizes too small.  I had no clue her feet had grown that much!  Around the house she never wears shoes, but she needed tennis shoes for fall.  I felt so bad when I realized she needed size 6 instead of 5 like I thought.  She likes her new purple, sparkle shoes, and I found a pair of Elmo slippers that she loves.  Elmo makes everything better. 

Don't you hate it when you forget?

I had something I wanted to write about today, and now I can't remember. I have found this to be the norm since becoming a mom.  If I don't write it down, I probably won't remember. 

Today is a good day.  Finally I am starting to feel happy about living here.  I went to the beach over the weekend. Hannah loves the water, and she was chasing seagulls all over the beach.  She thought they were ducks.  She thinks all birds are ducks.  I have found some fall activities, and they look great!  I didn't have a ton of opportunities in KS like I do here.  There are so many fun things to do here with Hannah.  Maybe it is because this year she is a toddler instead of an infant and would actually enjoy stuff unlike last year.  All she did was hang out in her costume and drool.  This year though, I think she will have a bit more fun. I know she won't really get it until next year, but I think she will have some fun. Now I have to decide on her costume.  I am ready for fall.  The only bummer about living here during the fall is lack of Big 12 college football.  It is a small price to pay. 

The waves are angry

Today the family went to Pensacola Beach to check out the incoming storm.  Having lived in landlocked midwest all my life, I have never seen any kind of tropical storm in my life.  I really wanted to see what the sea would look like, and I was impressed.  I know this sounds weird, but I would love to see the waves with a hurricane approaching.  I don't want the destruction of a hurricane, but I would like to see what it does to the water.  I kept taking pictures because I was so mesmerized.  I also saw my first jellyfish ever.  I have seen tornadoes, blizzards, ice storms, and even a tiny dust storm.  I am starting to feel like a Floridian.  I want to go back during the weekend to see how large the waves are then which makes me feel like a tourist.  I can't help it.  This stuff fascinates me.  I know that the storms cause massive problems and damage which is horrible, but I guess the scientist in me loves to see it develop and watch it move.  I like to look outside when the tornado sirens go off to see the rotation.  What can I say?  I am a science nerd.