Wednesday, March 2, 2016

The Other Half of My Story

A few weeks ago I wrote about how the running portion of my life. Now I will fill you in on the rest of my life. I was contemplating quitting school because I was feeling pretty overwhelmed. Also, I was shocked by how much I would have to spend on a nanny for the two semesters I would be in practicum. At the beginning of February I decided to pull the trigger and withdraw from classes. It may not have been the smartest move, and I definitely didn't feel 100% sure about the decision, but I think it has been a good one. I was already falling behind because I was having trouble finding the time to study, and then when I did have the time I was falling asleep or thinking of all the other things I needed to do. Honestly, the idea of going back to work scares me. I haven't worked since 2011, and I kind of like my freedom. The extra money would be nice, but I am not sure how much extra money there would be after child care costs. I can't count on E being around to help out because the needs of the Navy are first. He can't stay home if the girls are sick. Hell, he can barely stay home if he is sick. Every day I feel better about my decision.

As for other stuff, E is still deployed. I swear this is the longest deployment ever. I don't remember the year long Army deployments feeling this long. Thankfully, the end is almost here. There is light at the end of the tunnel, and every day it shines brighter. Hannah's attitude is still pretty bad, and I am trying to ride it out until E is home to see if that makes a difference. If it doesn't, we may be visiting a professional. I need help, and I don't know what to do anymore with her behavior. In the good news department, she will be tested for the gifted child program at her school. The girl is too dang smart for me now. She figured out that the characters at Disney are just people in costumes since their eyes and mouths don't move. I guess Santa is next. Meeghan is Meeghan. She is getting a pretty nasty attitude, but she is in the terrible 3s and she has a good teacher in Hannah. She is pretty proud because she learned how to put on her shoes. She is so excited to show E when he comes home. She still doesn't talk much at school, but I know she loves it there. She asks to stay late every day.

Just because a post should have a picture, here is one from Sunday when we visited the Magic Kingdom. (I am loving the Memory Maker feature of Meeghan's annual pass. I do not love the price increase though.)


5 comments:

  1. You have to do things that work best for you and it sounds like you made the right choice.

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    1. For now I think it is the right thing.

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  2. It sounds like you made a very solid and wise decision pulling out of your classes.
    So often I wish I could go back to work, but then I wonder if I *really* want to... I refuse to go to places (the aquarium, Disney, any museum) on weekends because I know how busy they are, and how empty those places are during the week days when we go. The freedom really is so nice.
    When does E get back? I sure hope the rest of his deployment flies by.
    And, sending all the good vibes for positive attitudes.

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  3. I think you made the right choice. I'm so glad I can stay home. Things come up all the time and if I worked, it would be crazy to try and figure things out.

    Deployments can be stressful, that's for sure.

    Love the Disney photo!

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    1. It just seems easier to stay home when the other parent has an unpredictable work schedule.

      I didn't realize how nice the Memory Maker is, and I am glad it is on my annual pass now.

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