Thursday, July 7, 2011
Age is Just a Number
I have been in Florida for about 3 weeks now. It still doesn't feel like home. I am learning my way around which does help. I feel less like a tourist not needing the GPS so much. I have met a few people as well. They are very lovely women. However, I realized that I am old. I am older than most of the other spouses here. The ones who are close to my age don't have children yet. I do feel like an outsider. I am the old one with a kid. At least that is how I feel. I want to get to know people and have a social life, but it is a bit more difficult when I am the only one with a child. I know that it really doesn't make a difference, and it is all in my head. I am sure in time I will make some friends and get out of the house once in a while. It also doesn't help that I can be so reserved and quiet when I first meet people. I think sometimes that does hinder friendships when I can't learn to relax. I am working on it. I stepped outside my comfort zone today and went to a meeting. I had Hannah with me so I didn't get to interact much. I had to make sure she wasn't tearing the room apart. It is hard to carry on a conversation when you are chasing a child everywhere.