Chaos

The husband went back to work this week.  He had been home since November, so I became accustomed to him being here.  I got a wake up call Monday morning when everything fell on me.  I never even made it to the shower because the day was so hectic.  I know part of it is the fact we are in the middle of a move which makes it hard for Hannah to play.  She has been acting out a lot, and it is driving me crazy.  I blame the move.  Hopefully in a few weeks she will start to behave a little better.  It seems like as soon as I complete one task somebody wants something.  I have to feed myself, the dogs, the kids, walk the dogs, pump, feed kids again, pump, clean, pack, pump, feed kids again, etc.  I think you see the pattern here.  I would get Meeghan to sleep, and try to pack with Hannah.  I would get about 20 minutes before either Meeghan woke up or the dogs wanted to go out.  I know this will get better once we move and have a yard again.  I won't have to walk the dogs every few hours.  It doesn't help that Meeghan has become so cranky. I don't know if she has reflux, if she is starting teething already, or if there is something else going on.  I think she has thrush.  I have never dealt with thrush before so I am not sure what to do.  I keep telling myself once we move and are settled, life will be better.  Right now though it is a state of chaos.  I hate chaos.

Life with two

I knew adjusting to life with two kids wouldn't be smooth sailing, but I didn't imagine this.  We have no schedule yet which makes it tough.  Between pumping, feedings, cleaning, quality time with both girls, and walking the dogs there is no time left for myself or quality time with the husband.  I know in a few months it will change, but right now it is hard to see that through the sleep deprivation haze.  Thank goodness the husband is home to help out.  If I was home by myself most of the day, I am pretty sure there would be many tears shed.  To cheer this post up a bit, somebody turned one month old a few days ago and she wants to say hi.